REFLECTIONS by BiliMaffy

Whoever came up with the saying,"Change is the only constant thing in life" was darn correct.I can't begin to list all the changes I've personally made over the years.One of the obvious was drinking 'coffee'.It was like the word never existed until"South Africa" happened"!I never knew caffeine was toxic to my system until I arrived here.I wasn't a tea-drinker from the onset.I just never thought I was missing out on anything and it didn't bother me at all.I haven't always been a'food' fan,so to speak.So exploring food and drinks wasn't my thing-I loved fruits though.But there's one thing I know for sure,I have always preffered hot food to cold,and am still that way.So,I now drink coffee,chocolate drinks-from hot chocolate to milk shakes.But this is me am talking about,an overtly cautious and almost precaurious weirdo.I have always believed in having a balanced life,a good sense of well-being and not over-indulgence.It ...

A forthnight back,I was held back by an unavoidable appearance at the office.Last week,we were taking care of things,dinning with the top notch in the Nigeria civil service commission-they were delegates for the conference..sorry can't go into details now!This week commenced and I wasn't able to get much done until today.I've balanced my study fees and I should grasp my textbooks next to commence revision.It was like a nightmare that would never end.I lacked the verb and adjectives to express what I felt until today.I felt a relief,a huge one.I felt like my overburdened mind, head,shoulders were freed (for now at least).I think it's about time I accepted that things are going to be this way for a very long time to come,more like "eternity" actually.I will just have to buckle up and adjust to the system. Ours is not a 'regular' family [whatever that means].And fighting it is a complete waste of energy and time.Things will not run "smoothly" ar...

Am not rushing down to the office,no way!I fee like am being punished,God help me!If I had forgotten why I never really like the idea of being a"business tycoon,mogul,whiz"..and the rest of the phrase used in classifying them folks..then the past two days was a good flashback and a very useful reminder.This isn't the first time I've had to fill in for hubby when he travels,but it's been very,very crazy from day1.I was at the office yesterday and was terrified of picking the phone after a while.Why would that be? I know the phrase "never say never",but I never want to find myself in that difficult and repressive situation.I hate situations I can't change or have no control over.I so hate the idea of"customer's always right,bullshit!@@@@!!!!Arrrrrgggggggghhh!!!I am so furious!!!I can easily back out and tell them to shove their rude and nasty attitude in their faces,but I won't do it....am too mature for that.I however set one of them st...

I am pretty much on my own now...hubby's away..&..am stuck with my double-troubles.That can't be helped,so it's no use whinning. It's not everyday I get to 'enjoy' making a mistake..an avoidable one at that.I find it almost impossible to believe that I actually wrote 'September' when the date was'August'.Anyway,Idon't want to regress.I spent the time exploring my school-that's something positive.It wasn't a wasted day.I was at unisa yesterday..thank God I got a 'free ride' from hb) I think that would have been the regret-going by a public transport.So the discussion class I thought I was attending had been held a month ago,exactly yesterday-my mistake!But I explored the magnificent high rise building.A masterpiece design!After taking the lift to the 4th floor,I used the stairs between there and the 9th floor,almost pacing in-between the floors,going back'n'forth.But no regrets as I needed to get out of this house.I...

It's been over a week since my last post and it wasn't laziness on my part...I can assure you that!I figured as usual I've got to update now before I resume to bed for the night.My eyes're blinking irregularly,heavy, and that can only mean one thing-sleep!It's about time.My eye test is long overdue and I surely need more than a pair of reading glasses.It's not helping much. I've been up by 3 a.m. dozing off in-between up until 4a.m.I had to get up.Whether am willing to announce it or not,the migraine I thought I had been relieved off was just momentary. I didn't realise how much studying had taken a toll on my health until my eyes hurt from strain and my head was continually spinning.I cannot honestly remember being this overwhelmed in the last twelve years.If I ever panicked or fidgetted over my studies,it surely wasn't while I was at College but way back in High school.That must be 'mathematics'.The only subject that made me feel like a stu...

I had to do this now else,the day'd go by and it'd be a forgotten issue.I don' t think I'd be able to forgive myself if I let that happen. My son turned six today....Hurray!!!....The experince of becoming a mother six years back isn't something I am going to forget anytime soon (if I ever forget at all,that is).While bathing him this morning I remember how tiny and fragile he was when we left the hospital for home three days after he was born.He weighed less than 3kg.He's still a 'small man' as we fondly call him but do not be deceived.Without any exergeration,I can boldly say he is one of the strongest kids I've ever come across,my entire existence.His energy is unprecedented and he's very well known for this.To say that he's a born-gymnast is no over statement.I,like many who know him marvel at his sheer display of flexibility and lack of fear to jump around,climb like a monkey,hence his nickname"Spiderman".And he would explore ev...