REFLECTIONS by BiliMaffy

Anxiety, anticipation and uncertainty is a bubble buster! The news I got today when hubby arrived wasn’t what I had expected. Not that I raised my hope though. It just wasn’t what I was hoping for.   I wish we hadn’t made this much preparation. Now we’ve got to keep taking groceries, clothes, and books from the luggage. That’s just an automatic‘re-packing’ afterwards. It gets a little messy too. Today, I felt like a real ‘full time’ housewife! I joggled my tasks and tried chatting with an old friend, alongside that…call it’multitasking’.Women are good at that. I had the apron on for one third of the day, cooking, cleaning and with the kids, driving me nuts. Can you blame them? The poor kids have really prepared to visit their relations, family friends and kids they’ve interacted and played with recently. Our flight was eventually cancelled and that didn’t come as a surprise. What would have been a surprise would be things going accordingly. Now we’re back to where we started. Takin...

"We can never live in the past as if it were our true home. And it is a good thing that God draws this veil over the past even without our asking. In so doing, He allows us to live today for tomorrow with just the few memories we need of what was"-   Karl Barth It’s easy to quote this saying, but difficult to adhere to. As much as I’m trying and willing to put the circumstances that led to the loss of my passport behind me, I can’t help but wonder “what really happened to it”. I have blamed myself for the loss. But that doesn’t make it any easier or less hurtful. I have now decided to accept it as the will of God. The uncertainty makes things more difficult too. The only option left was taking my passport (the new and ‘empty’ one) to home affairs, and having my ‘permit’ transferred. Finding a copy of the ‘Permit page’ wasn’t a walk at the park. It took a little brainstorming and am glad I came up with the solution. I have uttered less words regarding this unfortunate incident...

It won’t be the first time I’d be wishing for something, either would this be the last…As humans, we always wish for one thing or the other. It’s human nature! I feel like am in a dream, having a terrible and horrific nightmare…God please wake me from my slumber if this is truly a bad dream… If this is a nightmare, I do not even want to close my eyes to sleep or slumber. I do not exactly have words to express how am really feeling right now. This is a disaster. I feel somewhat stupid, disappointed in myself, troubled, terribly disturbed and hopeless…Did I mention helpless too? Where do I begin from? How do I start explaining what I’ve got no slightest clue about? I haven’t had a real laugh in four days. No matter how much I try, I just can’t let this guilty feeling go away and forge ahead…My “Passport is missing”! I do not know how, where or when it happened. An unexpected visit from the SA immigration department brought this to my attention on Friday; at the office. There was no way I...

First visit to the zoo...with friends from homecountry

And the man died…. It’s not everyday that we come across’ clients’ or ‘customers’ that leaves us with an impression. Even though I wasn’t regular at the office until January this year; I had had a handful of rude and insensitive clients to deal with. I do not particularly believe in the mantra of “customers being always right’. However, I know when the wish and demands of a customer should be paramount. And so it was that, a couple of months ago, a gentle middle-aged man walked through the glass door, like every other customers; and asked to register a Church. Even though am subjected to scrutiny and labelling, I have always been a tolerant person and do not treat non-Muslims with disdain or rebuke. Afterall, where I come from, extended families or even immediate ones always have a mixture of both faiths. In the end, we are all families! The deceased, Mr. Brown Cassoma Anthonio was like any other client and I attended to him like I would any other…respect, courtesy and willingness to s...

Am open to suggestions….May be am getting ‘too comfortable’ in my comfort zone. Or is it lack of time management? Does it mean am unserious all these years, procrastinating g that I intend to write a book? I think I’ve said it more times than I can remember that,”I want to write a book” .Even some of my friends have asked me “what about your book now”? It was really thoughtful of them and they don’t realize how much I appreciate the fact that they think I can do it. I’ve always said that, my friends even have more faith and confidence in me than I in myself. I was watching Oprah Winfrey’s show yesterday and she had a guest that has written a Book, which has accumulated millions of dollars, in the box office. The Book’s been Turned to a movie and it has gained popularity over the last five years or more. Don’t rack your brain, it’s not Harry Potter. Am leaving the details out as am not advertising for the movie…The movie has sold itself! What really interested me in all of this is the ...